~~ The Utter Terrain ~~

iza : jiwang mode…

You And Me

What day is it? And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive
I can't keep up and I can't back down
I've been losing so much time

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

All of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right
I'm tripping on words
You've got my head spinning
I don't know where to go from here

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

There's something about you now
I can't quite figure out
Everything he does is beautiful
Everything he does is right

Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you
and me and all of the people with nothing to do
Nothing to prove
And it's you and me and all of the people
And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you

What day is it?
And in what month?
This clock never seemed so alive

                                    

                                                                                 ~lifehouse

survey..(too much free time)

Survey from hana's blog (untuk org yang sedang buat thesis,,, seriously budak nih ade issue dgn dia punya free time)

1. Where have you been an hour ago?
watching craps on TV— kad astro hilang (aku still tak bole terima)

2. State your name? --Sharifah Nurul Iza Saiyid Kushari

3. Do you like your name?
A lott—I don’t think there’s anyone with this name other than me.

4. Can you remember what you did on the first day of your school?
tuang air teh atas meja (cant remember why).. and yes, gigit kuku

5. What do you want to be ten years from now?
when I’m 33? Epf yg banyakla maknenye kan…? I wish I cud be a system engineer, get a Master or something .. then, A corner lot house (semiD.. don’t mind la) , 2 cars of my own cuz I wont sell of my dad’s car, cats, a funny and fantastic hubby who cares about cat and love the meal I cook. Hubby? Children? Tax? Money? Unit trust? Insurance? (arrgh,, minyak kapak,,sakit pale)

6. What do u feel upon receiving emails?
depends… who sends it, what the contents are (same ngan hana)

7. At what age you first learned to use a pc?
form one? Ntah,,, tp typewriter mase 4 tahun

8. Have you ever eaten any exotic food?
lidah lembu (exotic?) don’t name me the recipes—I have a weak stomach

9. What was the last illness that you had?
dhuhh! Read previous post.

10. Do you like listening to rap music?
No.. NNNOOOOO!!!! Hate it to the core (when eminem first made an impact, it was cool,, now it’s just annoying to hear him preaching about his sad life..very sad, huh especially when that story makes u millions each day.. ( to all rap fans—no offense)

11. Have you ever thought of driving the train to uni?
nak naik train yang hana bawak,,,kahkah,, amek lessen train bape kali hana oi? (seriously, lessen ape untuk train? G? E? Q?)

12. What did you do last 1st November 2005?
carik cake recipe for dad’s birthday

13. Which do you prefer? sunny days or rainy days?
both,, depends on what happen that day

14. When was the last time you browsed the bible?

never

16. What is the brand of your first wristwatch?
Baby G hijau.. too cool at that time ,, I sleep wearing it

17.Look behind your back. What do you see?
aaagghhh,, HANTU!!

18. Say something about the person whom u like..
hurm……hurmm,,, hurrmmmmmmmm,,,    (tiru hana)

20. What did you have for breakfast today?
puri and nasik goreng

21. Your last dream that you remembered?
antare 6 ekor anak kucing, 3 ekor kena denggi (phobia dah ni)

22. What do you usually say when you meet a person?
hi.. atau pon sengehhhhhhhh sampai ade bunyi “ngehee”

23. Do you agree on the saying "to forgive is to 4get?

No ( people just wont forget, when they got bruised.. however they forgive… agree? )

24. Last thing you held before using the computer?
my handphone,, waiting for an sms ( which never came,,,sob sob)

25..What is the place u dreamed of?

Japan

. (same ngan hana) but Oh please, please ask me why

26. When was the last time your tears fell?
yesterday—mase chat ngan dayah  ( ahha, ayok, dayah! Tak tau,,ape kau buat kat iza?)

28. At what age are you ready to get married?
27, 28, .. bwuahahahah  bole jadik earlier kalau dah gatal

29. Long hair or short?
I prefer short..unless you have that curly, messy , wavy hair like joss stone’s but black. Pretty ha..

30. First person to run to if you are depressed?
you know who u are (mesti sume org perasan perasan,,,kahkah)

31. Whats the last movie you watched?
riding in car with boys ( it’s a real life drama,, please watch,, starring drew Barrymore)
I was touched..

32. Who was the last person you sms?
kiro

33. What was your worst flood experience?
shah alam kat TTDI tuh,,nyesal tak tengok berita pagi2,, bole mase drive siap tanye ina “ bile pulak ade tasik kat sini?”  anyway, kete I masuk TV tau.
34. Were you attracted to a person ten years older than you?
heheh…”transformer” (serius aku x tau name die… that’s what I call him la)

35. Are you happy at this point of your life?
YES.. but I probably cudnt be as happy as I was years before. It wont be the same

36. What do you want to eat tomorrow?
sambal sotong… again? ..emm, Pegaga? (hell no!)

37. Are you in love now?
hurmm ummm……….. umm …..  ….   …. ( i haven’t had things figured out,,just living the happy moments)

38. With whom?

I’m in love with the neighbour’s cat. That’s for sure..name dia KACAK . Other than that,, hurmmm ummm … …..

39. If you could have one wish right now, what would it be?
I wish for my mum’s well being… and wish the kittens tak kena denggi like in my nightmare.

40. By the end of the day, what do you say to yourself?

Haha,, “ooo saripah nak tido..tomorrow is a new day-- esok bangun awal!” (tepuk bantal 3 kali..silly habit dari sekolah,,siti rahmah ngajar ni,,) I literally say this,, hari tuh kena kejut ngan mak (Hoiii!!! Cakap sorang???..)

ngantok.....

moment of weakness

It has been a tough week. No- it has been a tough year. Last week my mum had been admitted to Ipoh Specialist Centre for DENGUE. Yep. If only I could find that idiot nyamuk aedes that bit her. Out of all people,,, oh yes, forgot to mention, I also had dengue on the very same day but since I’m super big, plus the overdose of fiber eating habit, and witty antibody-- so my super cool genius platelets are able to pick up after one day of suffering. I couldn’t walk, eat and sleep..(but I could happily IM..thank God for that) . Joints sengal2, it was crazy. I think the one thing that made the speedy recovery was the fact that I DIDN’T know that it was dengue until I arrived in Ipoh. I tot it was just the regular fever with bad timing of tired knees and elbows affair. Then, I figured maybe I had a severe dehydration problem, so I gulp a lake of water, I did drink a lot till I wished for a removable bladder. See- how much I complained. I just couldn’t imagine how my mum dealt with platelets counts of 11--> yes, ELEVEN!!

You do know normal people have at least 150 counts. And seeing it dropped each day I was sure I’d go insane if it weren’t for my friends. Telling and smsing me tips, petua, sweet thots and encouragement. Some entertained my worries thru out the nite. Some called—thank you. You have no idea how much help u just gave me. My luck, I have great people around me. It was a real scare when the blood transfusion didn’t increase the platelets. After what happened to my father, I could not be assured by doctor’s positive comments anymore. My mind just kept floating and my thots were fiddling wif,,”if anything happens to her”,, and I dare not to finish, It hanged like that-- I truly have no idea on what wud happen to me,,to us, to our family. I just cudnt go thru it all over again, not at this moment.

My mum has been tough and truly amazing thru out the 7 days of being warded. She didn’t complain, she truly is a survivor. Like I said, if only I could be half the woman she is. It broke my heart each time the nurse took blood samples and poke her with IV tube... Plus the fluctuating blood pressure. Wow. Terer la mak! So, after her appetite kicked in, the platelets also did. Thanks for mihun and 100 plus. Kesimpulannya, it took 11 bags of water and 7 bags of 0+ve platelets to get rid of deggi berdarah. Well, that hospital is known for great service..and funny doctors. And the one attended my mum is really funny, mak could giggle at 24 platelets count ( he sure is something, ha),,and of course they cekik you on the bill. But the doctor is quick with actions and firm with decision, so I’m satisfied.

Except this dustbin nurse, --nickname we call this trainee nurse that handled the IV tube after carrying the dustbin (and poking the tube in the dustbin some more) what the?,,of course my sister freaked out..who wudnt?, the germ wud go straight into the bloodstream..hello!.. that incident spinned our room to stardom cuz since then we were being paid with extra special attention,, they were super duper nice but all I cud see was “please don’t sue” printed on their uniform. We even get fruit baskets! Not to mention the unlimited access to ‘patients only’ MILO machine..yummy.

Despite all that, everything is fine now. For now. Mesti banyak lagi dugaan lagi. Cume aku harap, cukupla untuk tahun ni. Tapi I always remember this saying..” Allah tu bagi ujian pada orang yang mampu terima ujian sahaja” . Redha tu susah nak dibuat sebenarnye.  Am I strong? Strong enough for now. Be strong! That’s what kak azie says. There are many stronger and determine people out there , dealing with insanely more critical problems -- shame on me to be complaining like this.

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LINGER

have u watched CLICK? I havent, but my friend said,,it is one cool n funny movie. One thing I know, it has one awesome soundtrack.

If you, if you could return
Don't let it burn
Don't let it fade
I'm sure I'm not that rude
But it's just your attitude
It's tearing me apart
It's ruining everything
I swore, I swore I would be true
And honey, so did you
So why were you holding her hand ?
Is that the way we stand ?
We're lying all the time
Was it just a game to you ?
But I'm in too deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger...
Do you have to let it linger ?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger ?

Oh I thought the world of you
I thought nothing could go wrong
But I was wrong, I was wrong
If you, if you could get by
Trying not to lie
Things wouldn't be so confused
And I wouldn't feel so used
But you always really knew
I just want to be with you
And I mean it so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Do have to let it linger ?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger ?

And I mean it so deep
You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Do have to let it linger ?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger ?

You know I'm such a fool for you
You've got me wrapped around your finger
Do have to let it linger ?
Do you have to...do you have to...do have to let it linger ?
:p

                                                         ~the cranberries~